Thursday, January 10, 2013

Fear of fatigue

Ran around for 10 days in Europe and then came back and ran and went to our tennis clinic last night, where I ran around some more.

I have also been doing some intense writing, which can be an energy drain too.

Today I have been dragging. As I sit here with my coat on, one shoe on and one shoe off, the dog is waiting patiently to go out. My plan is to walk her and then run the loop again.

This morning I made decaf by accident and then, thinking my fatigue was due to being caffeine-less, made real coffee. I miss Europe where you can go anywhere and get a cup of coffee made with fresh beans.

So...it's hard to just accept being tired and lie down with a book.

After almost four years, the question still haunts me: Do I have leukemia?

I know that I don't and that you can be tired for other reasons, but still, I wonder if that fear beneath the surface ever goes away.

Anyway, I'm writing this later. Since I went straight to the couch after walking Maddie, I figured that's where I was meant to be. While I was lying there, Katie gave me The Talk, saying basically that staying healthy does not mean exercising every day. I know, it's true: You have to listen to your body.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Listen to Katie, and how about writing a travelog -- Travels with Katie?! i'm exhausted too, and i just got back only from a week in England -- no running around, just being with family...

on a different note, no need for a reprimand on the Paris Metro -- one of my scariest subway experiences was in the early 1990's at Bowling Green -- in the haste of passengers getting on and off, i fell, and my foot was caught in the gap...

if it hadn't been for the kindness of ny strangers, who pulled me up, i would have been dragged under...so no matter the city, native or not, stuff happens...

Happy Wondrous 2013! xop
you do enough exercise for both of us!
take it easy...

PJ said...

Sometimes you're just tire. Take it easy for a day or two and you'll be re-energized.

Diana Louise Carter said...

Ronni, have you perhaps forgotten to think about the effects of jet lag? It's normal to get laid low by a six-hour time difference. Whenever I've done it, it took me several days to stop feeling wiped out. Coming home is always worse, no matter what direction I go!
Diana Carter